An old promise

Weight
282.3

So what have i been doing for the last 79 weeks? Apparently gaining .7 lbs a week.

I started this 4 years ago to the day. It hasn't gone the way I wanted and I have put some back on, but this ship isn't sinking by any means. I've been beating myself up for the last year over how i've failed, but the simple numbers are, I'm still down 193 lbs from where I was 4 years ago. I may haven't done much in the last two years, but I didn't gain it all back either.

I was within 17 lbs of my goal last August. I plan to be there by next August.

82.3 lbs to go.

Last updated 79 weeks ago
That's a while, isn't it?

Weight
226
-3.9lbs

Exercising a lot, keeping the calories around 2000 with a few spikes up to 2200 throughout the week, depending on how much activity i've done.

I need at least an hour a day, 5 or 6 days a week to see any sort of progress. To see good progress, it takes about an hour and half.

Weight
229.6
-0.6 lb

That's a new all time low.

Finally the 220's

Last night
I ran a 10 minute mile.

I almost died and didn't have much left after, but I did it.

Some big hills in the way too.

Weight
230.2
-2.6 lbs

Weight
232.8
+.8

Weight
232
+0.5

Not what I wanted to see after two weeks of seriously restricting my calories and working my butt off, but what are you gonna do?

I beat my 5k time by 40 seconds the other night. I'm at 35:55. When I first started my time was 41 minutes, so i've made good progress there.

I'm going to run 6 days this next week and put my calories back up to 2000. I'm at around 1700 right now and that's not really helping and I can't go lower, so we'll see.

I guess I could say I'm frustrated, but that's been the constant for about a year now, so I feel normal.

Weight
231.5
-6 lbs

It's falling off! I guess I"ll stay at 1600 for another week. It's really killing me, cause that just isn't a whole lot of food, but I guess this is what my body was needing. I'm going to slowly increase it by a couple hundred calories a week, while increasing my exercise to match it. Hopefully I can get my metabolism kicked up and in top form, without it slowing down from lack of calories.

I'm 1.5 lbs away from my all time lowest. 2 lbs away from the 220's. They've been a long time coming. I'm going to do whatever I can to get there and keep moving forward.

Weight
237.5
-8.5 lbsI decided to pick myself up and I've lowered my calories to 1600. It showed some results. Some of it is probably water leaving that i had retained from the salty junk I had eaten before my last weigh in. Either way, 9 lbs gone is a positive. I just HAVE to keep it going this time. Have to.

Weight
246
+10

I know some of this is water but I've had a bad two weeks. I didn't go crazy or anything but no workouts and I ate more than I should on more than one occasion.

February is a hard month for me, with the anniversary of my dad's death... and other things.

It's hard to pick yourself up and care when you're depressed. Just being stuck for so long is depressing enough. It feels so hopeless a lot of the time. And even if I do pull it off, it's not like i'm going to look great or anything. I'll still look like a freak, either way.

I feel like i'm circling the drain.

Weight
236
-.8

I want to be at 234 next week, but i'm going to load up on creatine, so I may be closer to 244 but I would like to lose 2 lbs of fat this week. No idea how i'll know, but I"m going to put in the work. I guess that's my goal for the week. Get back into the swing things and put in the work.

Weight
236.8
+0.8

Weight
236
-4.5 lbs

Some of it came back off, but not nearly enough. Really busting my butt again and trying to get this thing moving without the resets every so often.

On a more positive note, my clothes are getting looser and I have noticed muscles getting bigger. Well.. I have noticed muscles, period. It's been a long time since I saw any.

For progress sake, my arm and calves.

Of course on that arm picture you don't see the underneath, where it's a whole different story, with the hanging skin. But I have some hope that it won't be terrible in the end. My arm that is. Other places, I have abandoned all hope.

Step Step Step...

Weight
240.5
+10.5 lbs

Worked out super hard this week. Did two hours at the gym twice, an hour and a half one other night. Ran a 5k and really worked by butt off. Stepping on the scale for a reset again, this time with no fault of my own, knocked me on my ass.

I attribute some of it to creatine, which I started taking two days earlier, basically making my muscles into sponges, but either way, seeing that number again is horrifying.

And so we roll on.

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I will be backdating and updating soon. Sorry for the downtime. I'm still at it and going strong, just had gravitated more towards youtube. But these are my roots and this place puts it in plain text, which I still need.

So I'm going to fill in the blanks and start updating regularly again. Until the end.

Which will be sooner rather than later.

Thanks for sticking around.

Weight
230
-5lbs

Soooooooooo close to the 220's. Oh so very close!

Weight
235
+1 lb for two weeks.

Not really the results I would like to see. Did mostly good over Christmas, scale didn't agree.

Weight
234
-9 lbs

Busted my butt for two weeks to get back in the groove.

Weight (backdated)
243
+ 11 lbs

This was the week that I slipped into old habit and binge ate for a few days and packed it on. First real big slip in two years.

I talk about it in this video:

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